I am where...

I walked those paths again.

Yellow remembrances -

dry leaves on the beaten path

cobwebs on the uncared corners

some stale fragrances in sleepy whispers.

I walked again.

Heart skipping beats with each step.

Purple bruises -

steps on crunchy fallen leaves

screech and squelch.

I shiver,

get back,

retrace -

afraid, frightened

tears, nightmares.

More tears.

A seductress lane.

Serene, golden grey -

alleys that end in wide armed pilasters -

comforting, inviting.

The turtle peers out

the shell gives way

crawl i say -

soft, tentative.

Softer lights through the tunnel.

Choked vision.

Run, run i murmer.

The legs tired

breath short

preserving rot and muck

Get back, get back - i scream.

The stable pilaster smiles

as always.

I turn back,

look again stealthily.

A long deceived smile i return.

Outside air, in the open.

Teasing me with caresses.

I am on the run -

again.

This time to nowhere -

as always.

Indulgent smiles

enchanting affection,

demanding everything -

but my own self.

Neglected i lie

somewhere in the alleys

Lost or found?

Can't decide....:)